I'm feeling really burned out with school. I know that I'm almost done, but it doesn't feel close enough. I just feel ready to be done. I want to be able to do the stuff that I want to do, instead of homework and writing papers on subjects that I don't really care about and studying for stupid tests.
It's not that I don't like learning. I just want to focus learning about the stuff that I want to learn about and I really want to focus on my own writing. I also want to do stuff to help Ben with his projects right now. I am half way through the term, meaning I have four weeks left. It's killing me though.
Five credits is considered full time, you can take 9 credits. It's less because BYU breaks up summer semester into two terms--Spring and Summer. I was planning on taking 9 credits both terms and then finish off my last few classes winter semester, taking fall off to have the baby. Then I got a scholarship for fall (not for winter) and went in to talk with my adviser to figure out what I was going to do. I discovered, though, that (due to graduation credit requirements), I had to take more credits than I had planned for. We decided it would be best to just push through and finish.So she got me set up for twelve credits this semester and I decided to try to finish this fall.
That sounded like the best plan at the time. It still does, actually. Except that I feel like dropping out of school because I'm so sick of it. Of course, there's no way I'd drop out with only 14 credits to go, but it sounds more and more tempting with every homework assignment I get.
One of the classes I have right now is fine--SFL 325, Forming Marital Relationships. I like it a lot and it's not too hard. I have homework, of course, but it is manageable and I'm interested in it. It's the easiest 300+ level class I've ever had. Seriously. But I like it a lot. For three of my credits, I'm a research assistant for the professor of that class and I love that (when I don't feel so overwhelmed trying to get my weekly hours AND getting all my other homework done).
My other two classes are the ones that are killing me. The first one is Nutrition 100. Yeah, a 100 level class on nutrition. Sounds easy, right? That's what I thought, which is why I took it as a filler credit. Totally isn't an easy class. The workload is huge and they didn't cut it back any for summer term despite it only being eight weeks. We have a test less than every two weeks, and they're HARD tests. I love nutrition, so I thought I would love the class. Unfortunately, I don't.
My last class is the worst. It fulfills my second humanitarian credit (because every person with a degree needs to take two humanitarian classes, right?). It's called Classical Tradition. I kept trying to take philosophy to fill it, but it never worked out (it filled up too fast). This was what I thought was the next best option. I should have taken it fall. The teacher is insane. He has his class read twelve books and doesn't cut it down for summer term (that's twelve books in eight weeks). That's on top of his four tests, two papers, and two quizzes every class period. He lectures for half the time on the books we read and the other half of the time, he lectures on the history around that time period. I am not really interested in the subject and it's SO MUCH work for the stupid credit. It's killing me.
I think if I can just get through the next four weeks and pass all my classes, then I'll be okay. Just four more weeks and a bunch of homework.
Monday, July 21, 2014
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Pregnant Life
Well, life is crazy. I am 27 weeks today and barely in my third trimester. I only have about three months left until Ashtyn gets here, which totally blows my mind. I'm so excited.
We've been getting all ready for her. We love yard sales and KSL. We already have so many clothes, all of which have been like twenty five or fifty cents each at yard sales. We got a cute little Winnie the Pooh stroller for ten dollars, which we were pretty happy about. The best deal we've gotten so far, though, is our car seat. It came with a base, insert, and cover and is only a year old, no accidents. It was only twenty dollars for everything. We were so excited! We've also had so many people helping us out, we're so blessed. We got our crib, basically brand new for free, along with a playpen. I've also had so many offers for baby showers, I feel so lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life.
I've organized all the clothes, though I'm sure I'll reorganize it many times more before she actually gets here. I've tried to clean all the stuff we've been storing in our spare room and put it other places. That's been a project and a half. It's close to being done though. This week, we're getting rid of the bed in there and then we can set up the crib and everything. I still have no idea how to decorate ...
I've been doing everything I can to make sure I'm ready to give birth too. I have a bunch of supplements and vitamins that I take, exercises and stretches that I do, and I try to do Hypnobabies everyday. I am following a pretty strict diet to make sure I get my baby all the nutrients it needs without putting anything that might harm my body or the baby (and that would make labor more difficult). That can be pretty challenging at times, but my sweet husband is doing it with me and we have found lots of really delicious, totally diet-approved foods.
I love being pregnant, but I don't really love school. I'm taking 12 credits right now, which (because it is a term instead of a semester) is the equivalent of taking 21 credits. It's really crazy. Two of my classes are lower level general classes, which I thought would make it easier. They are way harder than my upper-division credits, though, simply because of the workload. I feel like I'm drowning. I only have four more weeks and then I'll be done with this semester. I know it'll get easier (at least at first) then. I'll also have a week break then, which will be nice since it's my first week-long break since Christmas. I can't wait until December when I'm done with school for forever!
We've been getting all ready for her. We love yard sales and KSL. We already have so many clothes, all of which have been like twenty five or fifty cents each at yard sales. We got a cute little Winnie the Pooh stroller for ten dollars, which we were pretty happy about. The best deal we've gotten so far, though, is our car seat. It came with a base, insert, and cover and is only a year old, no accidents. It was only twenty dollars for everything. We were so excited! We've also had so many people helping us out, we're so blessed. We got our crib, basically brand new for free, along with a playpen. I've also had so many offers for baby showers, I feel so lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life.
I've organized all the clothes, though I'm sure I'll reorganize it many times more before she actually gets here. I've tried to clean all the stuff we've been storing in our spare room and put it other places. That's been a project and a half. It's close to being done though. This week, we're getting rid of the bed in there and then we can set up the crib and everything. I still have no idea how to decorate ...
I've been doing everything I can to make sure I'm ready to give birth too. I have a bunch of supplements and vitamins that I take, exercises and stretches that I do, and I try to do Hypnobabies everyday. I am following a pretty strict diet to make sure I get my baby all the nutrients it needs without putting anything that might harm my body or the baby (and that would make labor more difficult). That can be pretty challenging at times, but my sweet husband is doing it with me and we have found lots of really delicious, totally diet-approved foods.
I love being pregnant, but I don't really love school. I'm taking 12 credits right now, which (because it is a term instead of a semester) is the equivalent of taking 21 credits. It's really crazy. Two of my classes are lower level general classes, which I thought would make it easier. They are way harder than my upper-division credits, though, simply because of the workload. I feel like I'm drowning. I only have four more weeks and then I'll be done with this semester. I know it'll get easier (at least at first) then. I'll also have a week break then, which will be nice since it's my first week-long break since Christmas. I can't wait until December when I'm done with school for forever!
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Benjamin is ...
My best friend.
My dance partner.
My sweetheart.
My partner.
My biggest supporter.
My motivator.
My love.
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