How often she moves. I was expecting the kicks, but she moves ALL the time. And by moves, I mean, she really moves. She rolls around and squirms all over the place. And the hiccups. It's really cute.
The back aches. I have a pain in my rib cage--a ligament pain--, which is apparently really normal. It only bothers me when I sit too long, so like when we drive to Vernal or when I actually sat through all of class last semester. I also recently have been experiencing just plain back aches. It's really weird for me, I've never had any problems with my back whatsoever. I'm getting bigger, of course, but I don't think I'm that big yet, so it surprised me that I would be getting back pains already.
The weight gain fluctuations. I have the weirdest weight gain, I swear. When I first was pregnant, I lost seven pounds, due to my inability to even look at food while morning sick. After that first appointment, though, I did my best to get enough calories and gained back four pounds. After that, my morning sickness was (thankfully) gone and I was back to eating. I thought this meant I would continue to gain weight, but apparently my sudden reactivity (i.e. being able to move again) took its toll and I lost the four pounds I had previously gained. After that, it was a constant fluctuation between gaining and losing until finally I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight about a month ago. Then this last visit, I found out I had gained ten pounds in two weeks. I hadn't been doing anything different and I hadn't noticed a big change except in my stomach (which got a lot bigger and much more pregnancy-ish), so we figure my baby must have had a growth spurt. I'm interested to see what the change is this next week.
The irritability. I was so worried that I was going to be an emotional wreck due to pregnancy hormones. You hear all these stories about it and I was a very emotional person before I was pregnant. Pregnancy, though, kind of chilled me out. At least at first. I've had a few emotional moments that I fully blame on pregnancy (like that time I started crying when I was telling Ben about cheating on my pregnancy diet and eating a hamburger) but for the most part, I have been more relaxed emotionally. Except for my irritability, mostly when I'm walking on campus. I get so annoyed at people sometimes, for really dumb things. Like, why are their shoes so LOUD? Do they have to walk so SLOW? Why are they walking THREE across the sidewalk? I don't know why, but walking around BYU campus sometimes gets me so riled up.
How HOT I feel, all the time. The 100 degree weather we've had this year? Yeah, it kills me now. I'm fine if I can stay indoors most of the day, or at least when it's hottest outside. When I was in school and had to walk back from class between noon and three, THAT was horrible. There were days I didn't go to class simply because I couldn't handle the thought of having to go outside when it was so hot.
The hunger. I have been so hungry, since like ten weeks. I'm serious. I have to take snacks to church or I can't stay the whole time. I thought (from what I'd read online) that the hunger would subside during the second trimester. Nope. It's been a constant thing. I don't understand the weight fluctuations simply because I eat all the time. I have gone into pretty much every appointment expecting to have gained a ton. Ben calls me his baby dinosaur ... meanie. I do eat a lot, but I make sure it is all healthy food, so I don't feel bad. I know that if my body is telling me to eat, then I need to.
How much I already love this little baby. I am not worried about feeling a connection with Ashtyn when she's born or anything like that. I already feel like she is my life and I would do anything for her. I am so excited for when I can hold her; sometimes I see other babies and my heart just aches for her to be born. I know it's going to be hard and I have my reservations (particularly about the whole not sleeping very much thing), but I know that this is what I'm supposed to be doing right now with my life. I am so grateful for the opportunity to be a mother. That is what God sent me here for, I can feel it. I know that any of the little things with pregnancy that might be uncomfortable or inconvenient, they're worth it. I'm doing this all for my daughter and that's all that matters.
The hunger. I have been so hungry, since like ten weeks. I'm serious. I have to take snacks to church or I can't stay the whole time. I thought (from what I'd read online) that the hunger would subside during the second trimester. Nope. It's been a constant thing. I don't understand the weight fluctuations simply because I eat all the time. I have gone into pretty much every appointment expecting to have gained a ton. Ben calls me his baby dinosaur ... meanie. I do eat a lot, but I make sure it is all healthy food, so I don't feel bad. I know that if my body is telling me to eat, then I need to.
How much I already love this little baby. I am not worried about feeling a connection with Ashtyn when she's born or anything like that. I already feel like she is my life and I would do anything for her. I am so excited for when I can hold her; sometimes I see other babies and my heart just aches for her to be born. I know it's going to be hard and I have my reservations (particularly about the whole not sleeping very much thing), but I know that this is what I'm supposed to be doing right now with my life. I am so grateful for the opportunity to be a mother. That is what God sent me here for, I can feel it. I know that any of the little things with pregnancy that might be uncomfortable or inconvenient, they're worth it. I'm doing this all for my daughter and that's all that matters.
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