Jeremy is leaving. In like two months. I'm not really sure how feel about this. Mostly I just try not to think about it. I am really glad he's going, because it's what he needs to do and what he wants to do and it's all around a fantastic thing. In fact, I can't think of anything better. But at the same time, he's my best friend and he's going to be gone for two years. That's kind of a long time. And I'm going to miss him like crazy. He's the one I go to when I need to talk about anything and he's the one I do practically everything with. I know it'll be fine and blah blah blah, and it is fine. Except when it's not. I think I'll just go back to not thinking about it.
Guys are also my mind. Quite often, actually. Usually this is a good thing. I was actually talking to my roommates about this very thing the other night. We decided that guys made things so much more difficult, but in a good way. I'm not really sure how that works; luckily, I don't need to explain it because you know what I mean. If not, then ... sorry. But guys are, yes, a very good thing. It really has amazed me lately how one person can make your whole life better, without trying or even knowing they are doing so. This happens to me all the time. I can't tell you how many times I have been having a bad day and my mom or brothers (or both) have cheered me up despite my grouching at them. All the time I'll get on Facebook and Jeremy will be talking with me and say something that cheers me up. This sort of thing happened to me today actually. I was just feeling sort of icky inside today (I don't know if you ever have days like that) and someone texted me and it simply made my day so much better. I love moments like that.
Also, liking someone who likes you back might just be the best feeling in the world. Just saying.
That's what has been on my mind this past weekend. And a while before that. It feels good to get them out. Sometimes, you just gotta write some things out.
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